goal

December 11, 2008

walking beside the river this afternoon, it suddenly occurred to me that i should learn to ride the bike.

after all, both my parents know the skill (and a skill – not a knack – is exactly what it is). my mother rode it as a child; and my dad biked well past his army days whenever he spent time in his village. the bike was also my paternal grandfather’s primary mode of transportation until he passed away at age 85.

my mother’s brother, on the other hand, died at the age of 48 two years ago without ever having learned to ride a bike. i don’t want that to happen to me. i don’t want to die before learning this indispensable skill.

so: i’m giving myself until the end of the summer (2009) to learn it and i invite you, dear reader, to give me lessons.

note: compensation shall be provided upon satisfactory completion of said lessons.


in transit

November 24, 2008

even at nearly 400 km away, this gives me a warm and fuzzy feeling.


brevity doesn’t live here anymore

November 23, 2008

law school continues to mess with my natural tendency to write concisely.
my once five-liner plain language emails are turning into ten+ paragraph letters filled with extensions, illustrations, and paragraph headings.

gah!


[insert notvomity title here]

November 19, 2008

i need to settle on a blog title that doesn’t make me jump out of bed at 3 am and immediately change it to something less vomit-inducing.

suggestions are welcome. pleaseandthanks.

in the meantime, the qua-thing will do.


techshmology, quit deceiving me

November 17, 2008

lies. all lies.

contrary to iffsterly belief, the drive is not fine and i have lost all my lecture notes* and the photos from my summer trip i was working on.

no doubt the mistake was mine for not having backed up the stuff quickly enough, but it’s really gone.

oddly, i’m not too upset about it.
i kind of like this clean slate feel.

and hello, canned notes.

*i.e. all my first semester law lecture and tutorial notes for september and october.


the drive itself is…

October 18, 2008

a few days ago, my 4-month old macbook went crazy, leaving me without convenient access to a keypad connected to the internets. macbooks are immune to these silly breakdowns, i yelled to myself. i archived all my photos a month ago, but all my lecture notes since september were in the little white book, unsaved in other places.

since it happened, i’ve had the urge to post words and even photos, but i get paranoid doing it in rooms filled with rows and columns of machines shining bright lights on random faces.

just 10 minutes before closing time on friday, wearing my fuschia hijab, i made it to the store. half an hour ago, i heard back from J:

The drive itself is fine, and so is the data, so it looks like the OS somehow got corrupted, and is going to need to be re-installed.

=)


October 14, 2008

please let me know if you find the new layout completely annoying.

i was going for something simple and light. and i’ve always been fond of typing in gray.


voting time

October 13, 2008

while canadian politics are nowhere near interesting or scandalous as the stuff south of the border that employs hundreds, if not thousands, of political pundits (and comic-satirists), one thing’s certain: it’s the canadian federal elections tomorrow, folks.

i spent most of the past few weeks at home with the family waiting for the strike at the law school to end. sometime late last week, i thought, hey, i should vote at the advance polls this weekend. there was no telling how long the strike would last, and i could have theoretically needed to make that (roughly) 400 km trip that very weekend, which would have made voting on election day terribly difficult.

so on saturday afternoon, my father drove me to the local library to cast my ballot. i was hoping there wouldn’t be any line-ups and my notdriver’s license id wouldn’t raise eyebrows. okay, so my license expired in march of this year and i haven’t replaced it because i don’t drive and i don’t have a car because i haven’t needed one and i also can’t afford a car. in place of the ubiquitous photo id, aka the driver’s license, i intended to produce my citizenship card or, worse yet, my passport. luckily, my passport photo is quite recent because i had it renewed in july, but i get all sorts of reactions to my citizenship photo…maybe because a) i’m not wearing a hijab in and b) i’m nine years old in it. a chinese lady at the post office complimented my pre-tweaked eyebrows a few months ago, making me blush a little. on this particular voting day, however, i didn’t have to show any of the usual photo id’s. luckily, i got away with just the health card and didn’t have to wait in a line.

as i got back in the car, i suddenly remembered the drama of pakistani elections. and oddly enough, parts of rohinton mistry’s a fine balance re the indian elections helped me recreate the stories of pakistan i was too young to experience first-hand. i felt content knowing that my father was beside me, in the driver’s seat, ready to confirm (or correct or reject) my words. in the village my father grew up in, buses would fill up the local residents, young and old, of voting age and drive them miles and miles away to the polling stations free of charge. once the buses were unloaded, the voters would be instructed on how to vote and which candidate to vote for. the lucky ones would return home in the same bus, but occasionally some voters would be abandoned after they’d been divested of their votes.

there was no guarantee of the secret ballot being secret. neither was their a guarantee that the ballots cast would be the same as the ones that would be rolled onto the counting table. and yet, the mood was always both tense and celebratory. the rallies were massive public parties, filled with chanting and dancing. and let’s not forget the the occasional effigy- and tire-burning. i still remember the catchy political slogans that we couldn’t help but sing aloud as kids while playing tag or ludo. or while eating dinner and watching tv. it all came down to this: we sure knew how to cheer for and curse our politicians, and we sure partied hard with mitthai (and other desserts) and freestyle bhangra when the favourite party won.

fast-forward to last week, two days before i voted. i found two identical letters in the mailbox and thought, oh great, another set of those paper-wasting political letters. vatewer happened to the hipness of paperless? one of the envelopes was addressed to me and the other to my father. i opened up the iffster addressed four-pager and began reading it.

i don’t expect you to read the whole thing, but here’s the gist of the letter: it’s an attack on the liberal candidate, rob oliphant, who has replaced the now retired john godfrey of the don valley west riding. the key reasons that the letter gives for why muslims should not vote for oliphant is because he’s gay, is married to a man, and is a gay activist. also, the letter calls on abdul ingar, the (former?) president of the islamic society of toronto, for endorsing a gay candidate without declaring that he’s endorsing a gay candidate.

the stuff about kathleen wynne (also a gay or at least a bisexual liberal candidate) kissing a hijabi woman during victory celebrations is irrelevant here, but is equally vitriolic.

okay, so here’s the thing. while political knowledge, engagement, and sense of empowerment is low among a number of voters – many of the muslim – in my riding who have trouble understanding canadian politics due to cultural and/or lingustic unfamiliarity, i think the presence of a gay candidate of a party that muslims in the area normally support raises questions about the role and function of mosques in a pluralistic society. even though these questions are not the exact or only questions one can raise, they’re unavoidable for those who are worried about the implication of a gay politician using a mosque as a platform to impart his or her message and gain votes.

my thought on the matter is that a mosque is a place for worship, but it is also analagous to a school and community centre. it can also be a place for social and political engagement. add in the post 9/11 reality of islamic places of worship and accessibility by newsmedia is also a desired quality in the contemporary mosque. mosques that close doors to nonmuslism come across as odd and sneaky. while mosques in the city vary greatly in their actual structure and organisation, there exists a paradigmatic mosque that mirrors the complexity and plurality of the lives of mulisms in toronto.

there’s some debate over whether voters should vote for the candidate or for the party, but i take the skeptical and pragmatic view by saying, i really don’t want to see the conservative party win again.

oliphant is a politician who happens to be gay and an activist. his being gay is neither necessary nor sufficient for his being a politician. there is no caual or correlating connection. his sexual orientation is irrelvant to his role as a politician and as a liberal party candidate.

if there’s anything on onliphant’s political record worth worrying about or investigating, it’s his being an advisor to michael ignatieff during the latter’s recent (unsuccessful) bid to become the liberal party leader.


round 3

October 8, 2008

the answer to where i’ve been all this time is here.

i’ve been (b)lurking and sulking (for no real reason), but that doesn’t explain the privitisation of all posts old. i’m not sure the answer i just thought up is convincing enough: i didn’t want that stuff up anymore.

i haven’t dismissed the possibility of bringing back some of the old stuff, though, if someone wants to see it. i also haven’t yet apologised for disappearing. z pointed out a couple of months ago that some reader(s) might be offended by an unexplained disappearance. while i don’t think it’s such a terrible thing to have one less blog to read, i do apologise for leaving without notice. it won’t happen again, sir or madam.

anyhoo, back to the point at issue: writing good blog posts requires much effort. while i gave up on the idea of being “useful” (thank you, socrates) a long time ago, i didn’t always have it in me to produce interesting stuff. i have a lot of respect for bloggers who consistently write awesome posts and, er, post more often than twice a year.

hey! i just realised that bbb is also an acronym for brown, bumbling buffoon. and i didn’t even have to change the comma placement.

anyhoo, here’s hoping and sorta promising (to self) the effort will be sufficient this time.


July 31, 2008

all my old posts have been privatised because i suck.

i will return presently with new public posts, hopefully.
in the meantime, i’m thinking.